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TRF: Texas Renaissance Festival
Plantersville, TX
About Me
Hmm, I am a dreamer, extremely mellow, I have guardian personality, I am very Spiritual in abstract life, I enjoy ancient history, tattoos, industrial art and design. I get kicks out of photographing old buildings, cemeteries, and strange landscapes.
Not sure what I am, kinda Goth, kinda Punk, a little Rockabilly.. I dig old movies, old books, The old west, gunslingers, and most things magical.
People I'd like to meet:: Christopher Walken, Robert Smith, Dee Dee Ramone, Johnny Ramone, Joey Ramone, Gary Oldman, Christina Ricci, Tim Burton, Kurt Cobane, Rozz Willaims, Vlad the Impaler, Gary Newman, Peter Murphy, Bettie Page, Friedrich Nietzsche, Edgar Allen Poe, James Brown,Jim Morrison, Sid Vicious, Johnny Depp, David Bowie, Liz Vicious, Grigory Rasputin, Ghengis Khan, Shaka Zulu, & Al Capone
Other than that:: Anyone works :)
Hippies, Rennies, Punks, Goths, Rivetheads, Rockabillies, and the strange are good too..
Music
45 Grave, 12 Step Devils, Apoptygma Berzerk, Assemblage 23, Apocalypse Theatre, Aesma Daeva, Aiden, Alexisonfire, Alien Sex Fiend, Alley Dukes, Angelspit, Apocalyptica, ASP, Aural Vampire, Ayria, Azam Ali, Bauhaus, Bile, Bikini Kill, Black Tape For A Blue Girl, Batmobile, Bella Morte, Beat Mistress, Black Flag, Black Light Burns, Black Rose Phantoms, Blutengel, Bullet For My Valentine, Clan of Xymox, Catherine Wheel, Combichrist, Cabaret Voltaire, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Criss Angel, Carfax Abbey, Christian Death, Claire Voyant, Cocteau Twins, Concrete Blonde, Corvus Corax, Current 93, Darling Violetta, Dead Can Dance, Depeche Mode, Das Ich, Diary Of Dreams, Diva Destruction, Deadsy, Daft Punk, Danzig, Darling Violetta, Darkwell, De/Vison, Dead Can Dance, Dead Kennedys, Deadbolt, Death In June, Demented Are Go, Depeche Mode, Diary Of Dreams, Dimmu Borgir, Drain STH, Drop Kick Murphys, Evanescence, Emilie Autumn, Epica, Estampie, Echo and the Bunnymen, Electric Hellfire Club, Faith and the Muse, Front 242, Flogging Molly, Frontline Assembly, Funker Vogt, Gene Loves Jezebel, God Module, Gothminister, Grendel, Guana Batz, Gutter Demons, Haujobb, Henry Rollins Band, Inkubus Sukkubus, Icon of Coil, Inkubus Sukkubus, Jack Off Jill, Joy Division, Jefferson Airplane, Johnny Cash, Joy Division, Juliette and the Licks, KMFDM, Katatonia, Kidneythieves, Killing Joke, Kraftwerk, London After Midnight, Lacuna Coil, Love Spirals Downwards, Love and Rockets, L7, Lacuna Coil, Leave's Eyes, Lords Of The New Church, Loreena Mckennitt, Love Like Blood, Los Gatos Locos, Love And Rockets, Lydia Lunch, Misfits, My Bloody Valentine, Mazzy Star, Mephisto Waltz, Midnight Sindicate, Moi Dix Mois, Moody Blues, Machines Of Loving Grace, Marilyn Manson, Mortiis, Murderdolls, Mad Marge and The Stonecutters, Marilyn Manson, Malice Mizer, Mindless Self Indulgence, Ministry, Miranda Sex Garden, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, Nocturne, Nina Simone, Nitzer Ebb, Nox Arcana, Orgy, Operation Ivy, Os Catalépticos, Otep, PJ Harvey, Pain Of Salvation, Pennywise, Porcelain And The Tramps, Primal Scream, Project Pitchfork, Qntal, Rasputina, Razed in Black, Rob Zombie, Rancid, Rozz Williams, Rancid, Razed In Black, Rezurex, Rhea's Obsession, Switchblade Symphony, Sex Pistols, Sisters of Mercy, Seraphim Shock, Static X, Shadow Project, Siouxie and the Banshees, Stevie Nicks, Sister Machine Gun, Social Distortion, Scarling, Seabound, Seraphim Shock, Sirenia, Skeletal Family, Skinny Puppy, Sopor Aeternus, Squirrel Nut Zippers, Static X, Suicidal Tendencies, Suicide Commando, This Ascension, The Doors, The Who, The Ramones, Theatre Of Tragedy, The Cranberries, The Gathering, The Shroud, Tori Amos, The Cranes, This Mortal Coil, The Shroud, The Changelings, The Crüxshadows, The Reverend Horton Heat, The Horrorpops, The Meteors, The Koffin Kats, The Demented Are Go, The Guana Bats, The Nekromantix, The March Violets, The Gathering, The Pixies, Type O Negative, The Birthday Massacre, The Doors, The Circle Jerks, The Covenant, The Meatmen, The Birthday Massacre, The Birthday Party, The Clash, The Cramps, The Cranberries, The Cure, The Ghastly Ones, The Legendary Pink Dots, The Quakes, Three Bad Jacks, The Zombies, The Rasmus, The Rezillos, The Smiths, The Vandals, Theatre of Tragedy, Theatres Des Vampires, The Mars Volta, Unter Null, VNV Nation, Velvet Acid Christ, Voltaire, Within Temptation, Wolfsheim, Wumpscut, Zeromancer, & Zombie Ghost Train
Movies
Ichi the Killer, Boondock Saints, Run Lola Run, Donnie Darko, Name of the Rose, The Prophecy, Dark City, The Virgin Suicides, Brasil, Metropolis, The Record of Lodoss Wars, Dead Poets Society, NEXT, The Fisherking, Ladyhawke, Excalibur, The Omen, American Psycho, The Ninth Gate, Strange Land, The Lost Boys, Frankenstein, Howl's Moving Castle, Suicide Club, The Mummy, Night of the living dead, From Hell, The Exorcist, Princess Mononoke, Dracula, Nosferatu, Independence Day, Dawn of the dead, Bad Taste, The Illusionist, Christine, Creature from the Black Lagoon, City of Lost Children, Macbeth, & House of 1000 corpses
TV
Don't really watch T.V.
Books
Eragon, Neverwhere, Stardust, Tristam of Lyonesse, Tales of the Arabian Nights, The Sword of Shannara (series), The Hobbit, The Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, The Return of the King, and The Silmarillion. Lenore: Noogies, Death: The High Cost of Living, Death: The Time of Your Life, Smoke and Mirrors: Short Fictions and Illusions, Edgar Allan Poe Collection, Harry Potter Series, Drop dead magazine, The Druid Sourcebook, Kushiel's Dart, Kushiel's Chosen, Kushiel's Avatar, & Kushiel's Scion
Likes
Archery, sculpting, silver smithing, painting, sculpting, pubs, clubs, cyberpunk, steampunk, tattoos, piercings, cemeteries, old West, medieval europe, ancient egypt, anime, b-movies, bettie page, ancient japan, nihilism, books, breathing, british comedy, anime, computers, cooking, digital photography, documentaries, forensic science, fire breathing, morbidity, movies, chain mail, music, celtic culture, partying, photography, rain, sci-fi, serial killers, technology, travel, asian languages and culture, japan, ireland, china, vodka, writing, history, reading, writing, & leatherwork
You are an animal, you are also so much more. Curious, passionate, you are change. A force of pure feeling. Your logic, a concept. Everyone else has different opinions. We are all
unique and all the same. Your desires, your wants, your needs, none of
these are wrong or evil. These things are what you crave, the trick is
to acquire while considering the needs of others.
Commerce for example is not necessarily evil. Yes we sometimes lose
touch with ourselves by placing our concentrations on acquiring
physical possessions, however this is not the fault of commerce.
Commerce is nothing more than a philosophy. We have decided to lose
touch with each other, commerce is just an excuse. A scapegoat to pass
the blame upon.
Be a part of everything that interests you. Remember your wonder,
your excitement as a child. This wonder is still there, you have just
deemed it unimportant, Sacrificed a pure unity with life, the unknown.
I do not ask you to forsake commerce, to quit your jobs or careers.
Only that to desire your inner desires is a slow torturous death, a
deep disconnected darkness. Fight for your life, claw out of this
darkness, this self inflicted misery. Dance under the stars, in the
rain. Experience, truly experience life. Do not ever be content to just
sit there and watch the world, join it, be a part of it.
Anger, an inescapable
void. It seems that we grow more angry as time progresses. Angry at
other motorists on the road, the cashier at the supermarket, the public
officials appointed over us. We call them morons, ignorant, do you
believe this true? Do you really think your leader or president is a complete fool? Foolish maybe, we all are in certain aspects. No it is because you cannot control these people. We are angry because
we have no power over these people. That we must take the actions of
others as law. As a rule, we no longer trust, believe in others anymore.
What have these people truly done to wrong you, if you were in their
position wouldn’t you inevitably wrong others yourself? Do you think
that you are better, above their unique personal conflicts? Are you
really that biased? All of our paths are intertwined, we are only separated by our
individual reason. Everything, emotion or even our reaction effects all
that we come in contact with, whether either party realizes it or not.
I am not trying to tell you that anger is not valid, pure and
sometimes necessary. Only that it is not too much more difficult to
attempt to understand someones reason before allowing that anger to
evolve into hatred. All your hatred is, a refusal to forgive, an active choice to keep the raging fires of anger fueled.
Maybe, just maybe your opinions are baseless and one sided. Judgment
of another is often poorly acquired. Most of you refuse to trust, you
pass blame and accuse others too quickly. Why have you developed such a potent lack of trust for others? Yes many
may abuse this trust. Does this really matter in the end, what do you
truly lose by trusting someone else?
Most of us in this age think that our video game consoles, our
televisions, computers or any other physical possession makes us happy.
I do not agree, these are nothing but daydreams, objects to take our
minds off our existence. To focus on, to escape. Only you can make you
happy, a friend is simply combined happiness. The sharing of individual
happiness.
We all desire acceptance, belonging, to connect with others. The problem is, that which we seek we already have and always did. Reflect, have you ever smiled at someone having a bad day? Seen the
relief, the happiness in their eyes? Remember the way this felt, how it
lifted your spirit? The smile, letting them know everything will be
alright, that we are all connected. A pure connection exists always,
just open the door to your soul.
Love is not a passion for someone, not their beauty, not even really
an emotion. Love is more like a bond, spiritual harmony, multiple
emotions on the verge of sensory overloading your very essence. Wild
and untamed.
I do not proclaim my beliefs are better than yours. I merely
understand the world as I perceive it. I attempt to understand those
around me, to reconnect with everyone. This is my happiness, my
spiritual climax. I am not good, not evil, I am alive. I refuse to be frightened, scared
or to exist alone and detached. In my mind this is not really an
existence at all, fear is an anti-life. I am seeking all that is
pleasurable, maximizing any and every emotion. Nothing is more pure
than your emotion, the unrivaled reflection of your soul.
Don’t be silent, project your aura out upon everything. Give your
energy to the world and the world will return it, magnified. Stifle it
and it will slowly discharge and fade away. Nature is we, we are nature. Nature is not just a term, it is everything and anything, connected.
We all have emotions, with this we all have anger, these are our
personal powers. Learn about that which you use. Don’t just let lose
such a force without first understanding it’s power. Understand it all,
allow yourself to see the light and the dark, embrace and accept
infinity. We are everything and nothing, truth and deceit, angels, devils. We are
the world, an embodiment of the cosmos. So complex, so simple are we.
Either you believe in yourself or you really believe in nothing at all.